ahh, i’ve failed driving twice this week.
i failed on monday because my car stalled an amazing four times. actually, three times already merit a failure, but of course, me wanting something special, stalled one more time in front of the training shed so everyone could see. that sucked. and then today, everything was going alright until i stopped behind this car near a junction. then i tried to filter out and a van horned at me. GG.
honestly, i feel quite bummed. it feels quite depressing to go through everything only to have one moment of carelessness ruin everything. i know i can pass, i know i can drive. and if i didn’t make that stupid mistake, i wouldn’t need to drive another 200mins and 50km, i wouldn’t be going back to camp on saturday for pointless training. but the worst part must be watching everyone coming back and parking, seeing them finishing the damn thing while you’re still left behind.
the feeling now is frustration.
then again, that’s what i felt at the circuit. then when i come home, i find i hardly care. and its true, for the most part, i don’t think such things get to me anymore. army is one thing, my future is something else altogether. so long as the latter isn’t affected, i’ll be alright.
