i finished my 32km route march last night for my combat skills badge. it was easily the toughest thing that i have accomplished in my life so far. but for all my pain and suffering, i’m not getting my badge because i already failed my navigation. and every step last night, i knew that i wasn’t getting anything for the march. there were points where part of my mind screamed at me that i didn’t owe anything to the army (thank you sgt fong), it screamed at the senselessness of torturing myself to such an extent, to throw myself out of the platoon and just fall out. yet some perverse determination in me drove me to finish it. where it comes from still stumps me. if i could apply the same to my studies, i’d probably be in the US of A right now. instead, it just makes me grit my teeth and take whatever punishment that comes my way. and i don’t get a badge.
but at the end of the whole thing, i can smile to myself. because its over.
i’m so tired right now. my feet feel like they’re gonna drop off. gonna book in now.
ehhh. we getting our navi tested in ROC lah. lol.
that’s not a for sure what. if not they wouldn’t have initially said navi failures don’t need to march